Happy New Year!
I cannot believe that it is 2018! If I'm being honest, I wasn't too excited about walking into the new year. Why? Because I thought that my 2017 was going to end with promises being unfolded but it didn't. If your heart just dropped in relief from a "me too" moment, stick with me. Like you, I was holding on to every piece of hope that I could and encouraging those around me to wait on God because 2017 wasn't over YET. God was still moving and He could move in the last hour if He wanted to, right? The answer is yes, YES He could but for some reason that our minds cannot understand, He didn't. He didn't do (as far as our eyes can see) what we were believing Him to do.
So what do we do when we come to an "Even If" moment? The moment when you know that God is powerful enough to come through but even if He doesn't, how will your character respond? Even if God doesn't perform the miracle in the time that you thought He was going to do it, what will you do? I'll say for a minute, well a few days, I was frustrated, I cried, I questioned everything that I was praying and I was simply "mad" at God. Yes, this Christian girl was mad at God--bear with me. It was like I built myself up to hope, pray and believe in God's promises only to see my hope deferred yet again. But in the middle of my frustration, God came in the last week of 2017 to give me more grace to keep going. I was looking for a miracle to happen on the outside and God did a miracle inside of me. He began to transform my way of thinking and took me deeper into His spirit and presence. You know, the old Alex wouldn't have considered an inner reflection of myself as a blessing. I would have demanded that God do the miracle that I knew He could do or I would quit believing but I didn't do that this time. You see I know that God is going to bring my promise and vision to reality and I have learned to accept the timing that God is operating in and though it may be difficult for me to wait, God's word says that His grace is sufficient for me to withstand the wait. So here I am, complete, transformed, loved, chosen and waiting.
You have to see yourself and your situation through the eyes of God. The enemy wants you to believe that the prayers you sowed in 2017 were in vain. He actually wants you to quit believing that God can turn your situation around because it's been too long. You must be praying the wrong thing, right? You must have heard God wrong, right? You must not be praying hard enough, right? Though our mind can stumble between all of those questions, I am here declaring that you have heard God clearly from the very beginning. It is literally just a matter of time before the clouds full of your tears begin to pour out a heavy rain of answered prayers. So as we all welcome 2018 with grace, love and openness to the unknown timing of God, let's go forward knowing that the seeds you sowed in 2017 are surely to grow a hundred fold this year.
The miracle is not getting more, doing more, or showing off more. The miracle is becoming you so cheers to 2018 revealing your true identity!
Faith + Love,